Thursday, June 10, 2021

Families grow, people grow. The world turns and we get a little more gray.

Make a wish.

The seeds carry on our breath

and the wind does the rest.

Life springs

where it lands

making tiny sunshine.

A ray of hope

destined to offer 

more wishes to the hopeful.

I wish you could see us now.

What a year.  You're a grandpa again!  COVID continues, and has changed the world fundamentally, for good, and bad.  I'm a homeowner again, and all of the kids are heading in good directions, making good life choices.  I'm teaching.  I like this.  All of it.  Except what's missing.  Happy birthday Paul!

Wednesday, December 23, 2020

A Poem From Sue for 2020


posted for the thirteenth anniversary of Paul's passing:
Photo by AmyLovesYah - Flickr

December 22, 2020

In Remembrance of Paul

Twelve years plus one 

Around the Moon, Stars & Sun.

You've traveled them all

My dear friend Paul

You've caught stardust,

Thrown it down in from

Your place in the Heavens

Tossing the colors of the

Seasons all around

Of Winter, Spring, Summer, & Fall

You've watched them all

From where you are

Creating magic for Jordan Paul

A new life is soon to be

Did you whisper to Jordy

"Call her Jelly"?


I think of all the places

You could be,

You were most happy with

Your family

And those of us whom

You called friends

Were blessed beyond

The Moon and Stars

Where you have been traveling afar.

I know you met my Mom that night

At the end of this past November

Twenty two days away from this December day

On Christmas I will toast to both,

And all who've gone before

To all that was and is to come

Let Love carry you all home.

Love Always, & Always, 

Your friend Sue

Wednesday, June 10, 2020

Happy Birthday Paul

I'm not sure where to start.  I'm missing Paul terribly today, on what would have been his 62nd birthday.  I wonder how he would have managed himself through these strange times.  I'm incredibly sad picturing him trying to play with Jordan with a mask on.  Paul loved all that was new, and fascinating, as I do.  These new technologies, and gadgets would have kept him occupied.  He'd love being in these times.  We'd all love it if that were possible.  In the meantime enjoy these happy Spring flowers.  Happy Birthday Paul.

Sunday, December 22, 2019

Marching Through Time, and a Dozen Years Fly By

Short and to the point on this 12th anniversary of a sad goodbye:

You Should Be In This Picture

Peace to all of you

Saturday, December 22, 2018


This classic exchange today, on the 11th anniversary of Paul leaving us.  So much to talk about this year.  Our return to the Hudson Valley, officially graduating from college, Steph and Joe moving into their first house. More babies!  Things are going well.  As well as they can go without him here.  I still have those moments, now over a decade later, where I want to pick up the phone and tell Paul about a Monty Python Moment that occurred, usually during my commute.  I've been seriously considering finding a storytelling group somewhere and honing my abilities by spinning a good tale or two. Maybe telling Paul stories at The Moth or somewhere else in the city is something to aspire to.  We miss you!

Sunday, June 10, 2018

Someday You Will All Understand, and I'm Sorry, but you know, L I F E

To: Ashley, Amy, David, Alec, Justin, and Angelle,

Paul would have have been 60 today so this is all fresh in my mind at the moment.  Three of my six children knew their uncle Paul.  Maybe not as well as I knew him, but enough to feel the empty space where he used to be.  To my other three:  You would have liked him. He was a gentle soul, and had the Goldstein sense of humor, maybe with a little more Monty Python thrown in.  For me that empty space nags at me and reminds me that I can't share things with him. So many major and minor events that I feel like telling him about, or knowing how much he would have loved my new family, and the positive effects that would have had on everyone.

I tell you this now because someday some of you will experience this same thing.  I hope to god it's a LONG time from now.  Like 80 years from now.  When it does happen though, those of you still here will think back to this and realize how important you are to each other.  Even when you have differences. Even when things don't go quite right.  Even if you all end up in six different states.  You will always be bound by those family ties.  I know you're not all close, all of the time, but consider starting some sort of regular meet up.  My family did this when we were kids at the request of my grandparents, and we were all better for it. 

I love you all.  I may not be around when you understand what I'm talking about, but please consider the importance of family. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, and older it seems.  Happy birthday Paul!

Friday, December 22, 2017

The Decade

Dear Paul,

Clearly this is an amazing shot.  As a family shrinks, it also grows.  As the lower limbs of a tree disappear, new ones grow, and become entwined with the branches of other trees.

There are people missing here.  Some who had a call to duty, or work.  Some who left us after being here for so long.  And, one in particular who should be here with a crazy grin on his face marveling at his grandson.

We've grown Paul.  We've all continued down that path in your absence, and new people have joined this journey of ours.  They all hear about you, and wish they could have met you.  I know you would have wanted to meet each and every one of them too.  Especially though, your grandson, and grandnephew.

It's been an eventful ten years.  I'm thrilled with the accomplishments and revelations.  I just wish I could tell you in person.

Miss you.